Finding a new balance
HELLO EVERYONE!
First I would like to apologize to everyone for being so absent lately! Michael and I have had a whirlwind of a summer to say the least. As I stated in a recent insta post I can't quite yet share all the new changes to our lives...but I will soon! I have been beyond blessed with the opportunity to do whatever I want, and who wouldn't LOVE that right?? Just a few short months ago when I was employed full time, in school full time, and getting very limited sleep or family time I dreamed of the ability to be at home and decide my own schedule. Now before I get into this post I would like to add that I am incredibly grateful to be in the position that I am and to live the life that I do. But as with all big changes in life you have to find a new balance and that isn't always as easy as one might hope. In the past when thinking of, (excuse me dreaming of) the possibility of being a stay at home dog mom I only thought of the luxury of getting to stay home, not work, be with my family all the time, write, etc. But, I have learned for me personally that transition hasn't been as easy. Again, I am not complaining at all about my life. BUT, I will be completely open and honest with you guys, I AM STRUGGLING. I miss my old co-workers SO much! They are what got me through those long, tiring nights. I miss being able to see my family in the downtime that I had. I actually miss being busy! Never thought I would say that when before all I wanted was to just slow down. When you're home all the time it's easy to get down and lonely. Having all the options in life that I have is actually a bit overwhelming. Before I had no choice. I had to go to my job, I had to go to school and study for hours. Now, I don't have to do anything. Im not close to my friends. I had to find a new balance. I had to sit and think and be PATIENT. Something that I am not. My job before was to take care of people, and in turn I didn't really focus much on myself. So when given this new opportunity I had no idea what I wanted, or how to achieve it. Self care is SO important you guys and it's been an adjustment doing that. It feels selfish in a way to see my husband get up in the morning and go to work and my only job is to take care of me all day. I felt useless, lonely and sad. I didn't have a motivation because I didn't have something I HAD to do! And, I had never sat and thought what I REALLY wanted. I am certainly still adjusting, but getting into a routine is a must for me. I don't function well without that. This whole process isn't about getting to stay home and do nothing. It's been about finding myself. My true genuine interests in life. Learning to slow down and enjoy each day with a grateful heart. Learning to give back to myself so that I can be a happy, loving wife. My husband deserves that, and dammit I do too! For now, my focus is on my health, my family and my blog. I am blessed for this new phase of my life and learning how to fully love myself and do whatever brings my heart joy! Are any of you guys going through big changes in life? How have you adapted? I would love to hear from you!
Until next time, and I PROMISE I will be posting more frequently now that life has slowed just a bit and I'm figuring out a good routine for me.
XOXO,
Jess
First I would like to apologize to everyone for being so absent lately! Michael and I have had a whirlwind of a summer to say the least. As I stated in a recent insta post I can't quite yet share all the new changes to our lives...but I will soon! I have been beyond blessed with the opportunity to do whatever I want, and who wouldn't LOVE that right?? Just a few short months ago when I was employed full time, in school full time, and getting very limited sleep or family time I dreamed of the ability to be at home and decide my own schedule. Now before I get into this post I would like to add that I am incredibly grateful to be in the position that I am and to live the life that I do. But as with all big changes in life you have to find a new balance and that isn't always as easy as one might hope. In the past when thinking of, (excuse me dreaming of) the possibility of being a stay at home dog mom I only thought of the luxury of getting to stay home, not work, be with my family all the time, write, etc. But, I have learned for me personally that transition hasn't been as easy. Again, I am not complaining at all about my life. BUT, I will be completely open and honest with you guys, I AM STRUGGLING. I miss my old co-workers SO much! They are what got me through those long, tiring nights. I miss being able to see my family in the downtime that I had. I actually miss being busy! Never thought I would say that when before all I wanted was to just slow down. When you're home all the time it's easy to get down and lonely. Having all the options in life that I have is actually a bit overwhelming. Before I had no choice. I had to go to my job, I had to go to school and study for hours. Now, I don't have to do anything. Im not close to my friends. I had to find a new balance. I had to sit and think and be PATIENT. Something that I am not. My job before was to take care of people, and in turn I didn't really focus much on myself. So when given this new opportunity I had no idea what I wanted, or how to achieve it. Self care is SO important you guys and it's been an adjustment doing that. It feels selfish in a way to see my husband get up in the morning and go to work and my only job is to take care of me all day. I felt useless, lonely and sad. I didn't have a motivation because I didn't have something I HAD to do! And, I had never sat and thought what I REALLY wanted. I am certainly still adjusting, but getting into a routine is a must for me. I don't function well without that. This whole process isn't about getting to stay home and do nothing. It's been about finding myself. My true genuine interests in life. Learning to slow down and enjoy each day with a grateful heart. Learning to give back to myself so that I can be a happy, loving wife. My husband deserves that, and dammit I do too! For now, my focus is on my health, my family and my blog. I am blessed for this new phase of my life and learning how to fully love myself and do whatever brings my heart joy! Are any of you guys going through big changes in life? How have you adapted? I would love to hear from you!
Until next time, and I PROMISE I will be posting more frequently now that life has slowed just a bit and I'm figuring out a good routine for me.
XOXO,
Jess
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